Get on the horse.

I often define myself by my irrational fears. Evergoing thoughts about my own dystopic future, and regrets about the long gone past.

I worry about making the wrong decisions and never being able to correct my errors, or how my past decisions could be the errors that completely define my future. Come on, you know you do it too, even if it’s infrequent. 😜

I personally have trouble keeping on because I have no confidence or courage.

You know, this one time, I was really worried I was going to fail a math class, and I didn’t know what I was going to do if I did. If I fail this class, I won’t receive financial aid, then I won’t be able to attend school, then I won’t be able to land a job. I’ll be homeless then die! I thought. I shamefully dragged my way on over to a college counselor and told him my problem. My own judgment was crippling me on the inside, but at the time, I didn’t slow down to realize it was mine and not his. He advised me, and that was his job. My job was to take it and just deal with the situation. [I did, and didn’t fail, due to a burst of motivation in the final moments].

I didn’t really want to deal with my problem, I’ll give you that. I don’t enjoy confronting my fears, especially when it involves the possible judgment from others. But there the solution sat, in a nice shirt and tie, about to tell me it’s going to be fine and I’d be able to do this, that and the other. Just going to him took a load of anxiety off my chest. Overcoming my fear of confrontation was a huge feat of mental strength.

Then it hit me. This whole time, I have been responsible for all of my actions and their consequences. I chose to let it or make it happen; I chose  to be upset about it. Most importantly, I chose to pick myself up and keep going, even if it was emotionally and energetically taxing. I could get myself into a metaphorical pit of quicksand and there’d always be a way out, difficult or easy, slow or fast.

It’ll work out in the end if you let it.
You’re the boss of your life, now act the part.


A cute photo of me and this invasive Tent Caterpillar who decided to hop on my shoe for a ride.


How the Media Portrayed Women in 2013

As the majority of advertising stoops to new lows, it becomes more evident how there are two different societies that exist. There’s the society that people think/want to live in, and the society they do live in.

There are the natural people, and there are the “computer generated” people, as portrayed by the media. All too often, human beings of both genders aspire to be like these pore-lacking, tan-skinned, digitally rebuilt/enhanced models. These models frequently don’t even look like their digitally-enhanced selves. To try and change one’s body to fit the specs of an inhuman, unnatural thing, is unwise; it endangers one’s health, and encourages the problem.

So why do we do it?

Advertisements. “That can’t be the case. I just tune them out,” I said, until I heard this woman speak….

Just look a little closer; realize you are beautiful how you are, how loved you are, how much of an angel you are, without being in a Victoria’s Secret fashion spread.


The Pacific Ocean – Lifeless?

A revised comment on the article… Please click on the link above to read about the Pacific problem.

The extinction rates of species have been increasing lately. I don’t think there is solely one culprit to death in the Pacific, such as Fukushima. Surely Fukushima has contributed to the problem, but the root of it all (in my opinion) is consumerism. The public demands products, and the companies deliver. The farmers, the factories, you name it, produce the items by hacking up the land and eliminating Earth’s wildlife. Workers do insane labor for terrible pay. They process the ingredients, make the product, and that releases toxins into the air, the water, the soil, etc. The consumers use that product, and toss away the extra. Our oceans are littered with garbage, the things that don’t just “dissolve away.” Plastic remains, being eaten by fish, being eaten by us… the cycle continues.

This is something we can’t ignore. We aren’t just hurting the environment and animals, we are slowly killing ourselves. We depend on our environment. We can’t afford to destroy it, or hurt other people constantly. The solution starts with the individual… into teams, into cities, into states, countries, governments. Environmental change is scary, but we can’t keep saying it’s acceptable to ignore it. Facing our fears will fare a better future.



Posting article to make up for lost posts.

The “Trick” to Being Healthy All Around

Original photo taken and edited by Laura.

Original photo taken and edited by Laura.

Are any of the above true for you? If so, ask yourself: Why don’t I like my _______? Could it be because a person told you so? If not, then who could have told you, besides yourself?

For as long as life has existed, there’s always been competition between species. Plants racing each other for sunlight, elk fighting for mates, humans struggling to make enough money, fit in, thrive, you name it. Many strive to conform, strive to thrive, but have material goals in mind. Beautiful body, full wallet, a booming social life. Today, many lingerie and modeling magazines advertise beauty with retouched images of thin women with unnatural curvature and features. Musicians who are looked up to will sing of sex, drugs, and money. TV shows geared toward younger kids, specifically teenagers, feature young adults wearing adult clothing and a lot of makeup. Movies and books are released frequently which feature love stories of women finding Prince Charming and being swept away onto the back of a horse and riding into the sunset (same formula, insert your own characters and scene). It’s all presented to us in mass quantities every day in several forms. How much of an impact could this have on us, even if we supposedly “don’t pay attention to it”? Ask yourself this question as you observe your reflection in the mirror.

Appreciating our bodies for what they have developed into, appreciating every aspect of who we are is crucial to being happy. What doesn’t benefit you, leave it behind. Someone could tell us we’re beautiful a thousand times, but it won’t count until we believe it ourselves. We cannot rely on another person to validate any aspects of our own heart – it lies within us, not outside us; not them.

Did you know, people who are happy and appreciate themselves are healthier than those who don’t? (1 source) Stress is something that causes our heart to race, our skin to sweat, our minds to panic, and our muscles to be tense. Constant stress can cause dormant illnesses to resurface, such as Shingles (a strain of the Herpes virus), and heart problems as well as digestive problems to occur. It also distracts the immune system by spending valued energy on the “flight” response. Happiness and relaxation allows the body to efficiently utilize energy which strengthens the immune system and lets you get a better night’s sleep. Your body produces white blood cells when you get enough sleep, which fight off bad bugs. Sleep is your “repair” time. Better mood -> more sleep -> better immune system and regeneration -> healthy body -> healthy mind -> better mood. Full circle!

How is it in our nature to instantly result to finding a flaw in such a beautiful creature, instead of counting all the wonderful qualities? Instead of looking at someone’s physical features and judging them like they’re in a superficial pageant, we could simply appreciate the diversity of life. What would life be, if nothing was different? We wouldn’t have anything at all – everyone’s view of beautiful and not is different, sometimes to drastic degrees. If everything was “perfect” like that one guy, or that one girl, like that one picture, like I want to be, the world as we know it would have no diversity. We would crave the different, the unique. So, let’s appreciate what we have – the spice of variety, the beauty and complexity of all of life. Moving past judgment, and settling solely with appreciation – gratitude. Life is not about what appears to us in the physical, it’s about what lies within it all.

Wake up every day and smile. You don’t even have to mean it. Simply smiling releases the “happy hormone” in your brain, and that’s a good start to your day. Take care of your precious body, it’s the only one you’ll have this lifetime. Love yourself. In loving yourself, you radiate positive energy to everyone around you, improving your friends’ moods, their friends’ moods, and their friends’ moods, eventually the neighborhood, the city, the country, the world. It’s exponential. Loving yourself does not mean gloating, but simply being grateful for your presence on Earth, for everything around you, who you were, who you are, and who you will be. Remember, you’re not alone. You’re one of 7.17 billion (and counting) beautiful individuals on planet Earth with your own story, your own appearance, your own body and free will. You have the power to change your life and the lives of others. Make the best of it!

With love,